It’s funny that I started to think that falling in love is just like a Russian Roulette game. The difference is; in the Russian Roulette you can physically die, falling in love you can emotionally die. In both cases you can be finished. That’s why I say it’s funny. But it really isn’t that funny. The more I think about the similarities, the more it scares me.
We fall in love and we don’t know if it’s gonna work this time or it will end in another heartbreak. There comes a point actually when you are so afraid to open your heart again. You swear you won’t allow it to go through this pain one more time. You shield yourself, you avoid being vulnerable to anyone again, you do everything in your power to protect yourself. But one day comes, one person shows up in your life and it gives you hope that it’s possible to love again. But you quickly remember what you been through and you say to yourself: “what makes this person any different? They are all the same!!” And while there is some truth to that thought, I must say that everyone is the same at the core, yet different in the way they treat you. All it takes is the right combination, the right chemistry, the right timing, the right desires, the right experience; to make that new person, the right fit in the end. So even though it feels like you are gambling with your heart, you are playing the Russian Roulette game, there is still hope that you will skip being hurt this time around and the game will be over once and for all.
When you play the Russian roulette, once you pull the trigger, either you will live or will die. If you get an empty shell, you get a second chance to live and who knows when it’s your next turn will you be so lucky to escape death one more time or not. When you fall in love, once your heart is on the line, either you live happily ever after or you will end up with a broken heart. But it’s not over for you, you can pick up the pieces and try again. Until one time, you hit the jack pot. And even if you don’t find the right love, you get to still live and make the best of your time. So you see, as painful as it is, falling in and out of love, getting your heart broken over and over, is still better than the Russian Roulette. Wouldn’t you agree??
I know it’s not easy. We have all been hurt, let down, got broken, disappointed; you name it. But all this should not stop us from finding love again. It’s out there somewhere. We cannot give up hope. Now I’m not saying go out and look for it. All I am saying is when an opportunity comes knocking at your door, don’t slam the door in its face. You might be walking away from the best thing that would ever happen to you. You could be missing out on your break from all the agony you suffered. You just never know what you could be saying NO to. Having said that, I will also say, don’t put your heart on the line so easily. Hold your emotions a bit and be realistic. Take the time to get to know this person better and when in-doubt, follow your instincts; they are usually right. Let that person prove to you, that they deserve you. Be confident in who you are and what you have to offer and don’t sell yourself cheap. And you will know at the right time, when to let your guard down and fall in love again. Allow yourself to feel all the crazy things you missed out on. Have fun and live everyday like never before. Life is meant to be lived with love and with someone special to share it with. The more alone you are, the more you get used to it. But if you allow people in a little bit, you will be able to open up one day, you may meet the right person, and you may find the happiness you deserve.
So why not play the Russian Roulette game. But choose the one with love bullets please.