What am I searching for?

I wake up once again by some lady’s voice yelling and laughing, just a little before dawn and once again I can’t fall back to sleep. As I listen to unfamiliar sounds of the night. From cock-crow to insects drone to birds chirping followed by a little of residential traffic with occasional motorbike passing. I hear all this and I wonder, why did I have to wake up now. I wanted to sleep some more. My alarm still had couple of hours and I need to sleep well for the day I planned ahead. But what can I say, the more I struggle to go back to sleep, the more I awaken. So I allowed some more crazy thoughts to take over my mind and here I am writing them.  Continue reading