Gedo

How do I start to express how I feel right now. I’m speechless. How do I explain the pain I feel in my heart. There are no words really. This pain is like your organs are being twisted inside your body to the point you can’t breath. Even when you cry, you do it from deep inside. Tears fall down uncontrollably. You don’t know how to stop it. You don’t wanna stop it. It doesn’t really make you feel better. But you can’t help it. You just have to release whatever you feel. Holding it in would be the worst thing you can do. Continue reading

The wait is over

So you plan for something and it seems like there is lots of time until the moment you have waited for. There is anticipation, anxiety and some expectation.  But nothing happens the way you imagine it. Events unfold in ways you never thought it could. You wait and you wait and sometimes you think there is still lots of time to do this and say that. Little did you know, time is passing while you are not paying attention. It’s actually faster than you thought. The moment comes and the moment goes. You only realize it after it had passed. And the wait is finally over. Continue reading

AFRAID

Sometimes what you need is not what you want. And what you want is not what you need. To solve this puzzle is to search within yourself to understand who you truly are. Same statement, same words, different meaning. What you understand out of this statement may very well be a whole different thing from what another understands. Why is that? Continue reading

Ways to Learn

It’s no secret that every individual has their own method to learn and retain information. Learning is an ongoing fact of life. Learning never stops. We are constantly seeking knowledge. We are endlessly asking questions. We are eagerly trying to feel safe in our environment and that can only come from the confidence of knowing. Continue reading

Desires

Is it wrong to desire? Desiring can be for many things including but not limited to: food, sex, finest materials (clothes, shoes, cars, houses … Etc). Is there a fine line we reach when our desires turn into obsessions? Is there a good desire and a bad desire?  Who decides?? Let’s think.  Continue reading

It is all about the method 

“It’s not what you say, it’s how you say it.”  A very well-known statement we heard time and time again. And as we go through life, the meaning of those words become more apparent. It may sound as a cliché. But the context is ever true. And as life takes us on many excursions, we get to apply what we know. It is about the method in the end.  Continue reading

I Know I AM

Just because I have shown my strength doesn’t mean I can’t have moments of weakness. Just because I am showing resilience doesn’t mean I can’t fall apart sometimes. Who said you can’t have both at the same time. Who said there was a wrong or right for being weak or losing your balance for a while. It’s totally fine. Continue reading

Where is your focus?

I ask where is your focus. Do you even know? At times you think you are so sure of where you are heading. You think you got your priorities in order. You know what needs to be done and follow some sort of a plan. Then a series of events take place and you are thrown of course for a while. you get distracted and suddenly you find yourself all lost and confused. Where were you going again? And why? And how?  All kinds of questions arise and you realize that you were never really focused. You were all over the place from the start. And the circumstances simply woke you up and helped you see the reality that you were blinded to.  Continue reading

Not Ready to Listen

What can you really do when the person you are talking to is not ready to listen. How frustrating this can be. You explain and you simplify and you express yourself in different ways and you pour your heart out, with no result. It’s like you are talking to a wall. Hell, by now the wall would have talked after all this effort. So why is this happening? Continue reading

Let the Past Be in the Past

Many times we hold on to things from the past. From memories to emotions to sentimental objects.  And while we may convince ourselves that we have moved on and we are just holding on to something that meant a great deal to us, in fact we haven’t truly let go because we don’t want to. There is a part of us that still wants to hold on. And we continue living an illusion that we moved on. Continue reading

Is your job boring?

Seriously, some people’s jobs are super boring. No matter which way you look at it. No matter how much you try to spin it. It’s BOOOOORING!!! Shoot me now, kinda feeling. But what can you do to prevent yourself from going crazy. How will you entertain yourself-for lack of a better term.  Continue reading

For the sake of love

What we do for the sake of love sometimes we cannot comprehend. For those who understand the true meaning of love, it comes naturally to them to give all they can to the ones they love. Since love comes in different shapes and forms and since there is more than one type of love, therefore people will express their love differently. And it is totally just fine.  Continue reading

My life; My way

Do you want to know what it’s like living in a world where you are this person but to the rest of the world you are another. Have you ever felt that you are living a double life. Have you ever had to hide what you feel inside. Have you ever had to pretend to be someone you are not. Did you ever have to make decisions in your life where you would live in pain whichever way you choose. Welcome to my life.  Continue reading

Is it Strength or Is it Weakness 

Many times we are faced with situations in our lives where we have to make detrimental decisions; decisions that will alter the path we are on. We may be aware of their importance while going through them. Other times, we realize their importance later, possibly after the fact. Maybe we do it on purpose; not making things a big deal. And maybe we are aware and we feel every emotion that comes our way. Regardless Continue reading